» Edit 2/20/25 i forgot that i have since changed the url for the website i’m referring to in this post. It’s now smallweb.site/share and i changed it bc tiktok was getting shut down and i wanted a more universal resource bank… then tiktok didnt get taken down and now the site has entered a weird purgatory where… it’s still functional but i dont know what i’m envisioning quite yet.

I don’t want to be dismal… as in; I am too exhausted to be dismal.

And I’m tired of instagram canva infographics and hashtags. We’re better than that, aren’t we? Can we move past that?

I want to take care of myself and I want to hold onto my ethos and I want to play and I want to make things with my hands and share things with my friends and I want them to do the same. I want us to remember our capacity, I don’t want us to burn out in vain.

Hope is a dangerous thing like a woman like me to have but I have it, right? It’s always that. But we needed to have it no matter who won the presidency… because I get the sense that we’ve hit a wall.

There’s this funny dichotomy in “not to make things political”. On one side I have to agree; there are too many unproductive fads that bank on buzzwords— stop! You’re burning yourself out and no one’s listening to you. The rhetoric isn’t working. On the other side; in a country systemically designed to homogenize, suppress, and isolate, everything is political. And that feels simultaneously scary (like it’s a huge responsibility) and underwhelming (because it’s like ok then, how have we not “made a difference” yet?). Maybe we’re doing too much hand waving. Everyone’s about radicalization, everyone’s pointing in the right direction, but we’re skipping too many steps. We need to start right here: who is your community? Point to them in the crowd, picture their faces, tell me your favorite memory with them, give me a reason to be proud of them.

I want to break down what 2016-2020 taught us about community organization; arm flailing, treading water, heavy hearts. I want to request that we go back to something more organic.

I spent a few hours the other night building a website— which I haven’t done in months lol.

Selfishly, I wanted a place to collect resources that feel good.

There are going to be a lot of intimidating master lists circulating soon; where to donate, where to protest, what books to read, podcasts to follow, people to call. I wanted a repository of tangible resources that don’t demand you to go out of your way right now. I want us to start with what we have & explore our niches so we are better equipped to welcome others in.

smallweb.site/remember/hope

is a resource repository that you can contribute to also. It doesn’t take itself too seriously (at least I hope not) because it’s made to collect little pieces of content we’d usually save to bring up in some conversation down the line. Like everything I make online, it’s a WIP but it’s functional! Functional enough to share and start building up. I think it’d be cool to see how this gets filled in and what sort of things people share. I hope you think so too!

Is it some big revolutionary prototype to an end all answer to everything? No— but the fact that crosses my mind as something I need to disclaim is probably part of the complex. I can’t answer to those big problems as I am. But I can act on my feelings and ideas— note to self: do that first.

Like I said; I want to take care of myself and I want to hold onto my ethos and I want to play and I want to make things with my hands and share things with my friends and I want them to do the same. I want us to remember our capacity, I don’t want us to burn out in vain.

Let’s challenge ourselves? To proceed with so much integrity… to build pockets of relief beyond this rigid system… to fall in love, despite… to know so much of ourselves… to brag… to be challenged… to open ourselves up and put our guts on the table… to overcome a fear of it all…

So don’t crash out on me now babygirl, I want you in on this.